I’m comfortable being a stay-at-home mom. However, our finances are not. Plus there’s a tugging at my heart to help others. Not to mention the fact that after my internship I will graduate college. But I just can’t get a job!
1. I have to be home for the kids. Logical excuse. My six year old gets home at 2:30 and I need to be home for her. I do not like sending her to a babysitter’s house. However, I do have the option of the after school care program at the local YMCA. So that could easily be taken care of.
2. I have two teenage boys that both get home at 4:00. My oldest son is fully capable of being trusted to stay home by himself and fix himself something to eat after school. Plus he will get his homework done no problem. However, my other son is not capable of doing these things. He has behavioral problems and refuses to follow directions or rules. Not that he can’t, he just won’t. He has burned food in the microwave, almost catching the house on fire. He has broken windows. He has vandalized the neighbor’s house. He has scratched both vehicles. He has cut huge holes in the trampoline. And the list goes on. And he will most definitely not get his homework done. Needless to say, he cannot stay home by himself. He also cannot go to the YMCA after school. He was doing that for a while before he got caught doing drugs with some older kids there. So nope. Not going to happen. And what babysitter is going to babysit an almost 15-year old child? None that I have found.
3. I’m scared to go to work. Okay, this may sound a little ridiculous, but I am a tad afraid of going back to work. It’s been years since I had a job and my last job I worked from home. I only had to go into the office once a month, but every other day I was in the comfort of my own home. What if I fail? What if I cannot keep up? What if I just can’t do the job? Maybe it’s rejection that I fear most. Either way, going to a new job is scary. Bad excuse. I know.
4. How am I going to start a new job when I will have to take off work a lot to go to the doctor every 6 weeks for me, counseling for both sons, and the doctor for my daughter’s asthma and allergies? I do not want to get fired from a job I just started! How embarrassing.
So these are the top excuses that cross my mind. I know that all of these can be taken care of, yet the excuses still roll in. I don’t want to have any more excuses. I want them erased from my mind. I want to be able to just get up and have a career I love and enjoy. So no more excuses!
My dream is to work with children with Down syndrome. When I first went back to school I had no idea what I truly wanted to do. I knew that I wanted to study psychology. I threw in some criminal justice classes thinking I wanted to go into prison ministry, or counseling. That didn’t tug at my heart. I took a special education class thinking I could work in preschools with kids with special needs. But that didn’t tug at my heart. It was not until the last semester of school that I realized that I wanted to desperately work with children with Down syndrome. This tugs at my heart. I feel this is my calling and my purpose. I feel strongly about this career choice. And yes, my dream is bigger than my excuses, and far more important.
The men in Luke 9:59-62 kept making excuses as to why they could not follow Jesus when Jesus told them to. The first man’s excuse was that he needed to go home and bury his father first. The second man’s excuse was that he needed to say goodbye to his family first. Jesus’s reply was this: “Anyone who puts a hand to the plow and then looks back is not fit for the Kingdom of God.” I want to be fit for the Kingdom of God. I want to go forward and not look back. I want to stop making excuses and live my dream.
“I can’t” statements can either come from truths or from laziness or fear. Obviously my “I can’t’s” are strictly from fear. Each one of my excuses are things that can be worked on and figured out. I just need to get that in my mind and stop making excuses.
What is your dream? What excuses are holding you back?