No More Excuses!

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I’m comfortable being a stay-at-home mom. However, our finances are not. Plus there’s a tugging at my heart to help others. Not to mention the fact that after my internship I will graduate college. But I just can’t get a job!

My excuses

1. I have to be home for the kids. Logical excuse. My six year old gets home at 2:30 and I need to be home for her. I do not like sending her to a babysitter’s house. However, I do have the option of the after school care program at the local YMCA. So that could easily be taken care of.

2. I have two teenage boys that both get home at 4:00. My oldest son is fully capable of being trusted to stay home by himself and fix himself something to eat after school. Plus he will get his homework done no problem. However, my other son is not capable of doing these things. He has behavioral problems and refuses to follow directions or rules. Not that he can’t, he just won’t. He has burned food in the microwave, almost catching the house on fire. He has broken windows. He has vandalized the neighbor’s house. He has scratched both vehicles. He has cut huge holes in the trampoline. And the list goes on. And he will most definitely not get his homework done. Needless to say, he cannot stay home by himself. He also cannot go to the YMCA after school. He was doing that for a while before he got caught doing drugs with some older kids there. So nope. Not going to happen. And what babysitter is going to babysit an almost 15-year old child? None that I have found.

3. I’m scared to go to work. Okay, this may sound a little ridiculous, but I am a tad afraid of going back to work. It’s been years since I had a job and my last job I worked from home. I only had to go into the office once a month, but every other day I was in the comfort of my own home. What if I fail? What if I cannot keep up? What if I just can’t do the job? Maybe it’s rejection that I fear most. Either way, going to a new job is scary. Bad excuse. I know.

4. How am I going to start a new job when I will have to take off work a lot to go to the doctor every 6 weeks for me, counseling for both sons, and the doctor for my daughter’s asthma and allergies? I do not want to get fired from a job I just started! How embarrassing.

So these are the top excuses that cross my mind. I know that all of these can be taken care of, yet the excuses still roll in. I don’t want to have any more excuses. I want them erased from my mind. I want to be able to just get up and have a career I love and enjoy. So no more excuses!

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My dream is to work with children with Down syndrome. When I first went back to school I had no idea what I truly wanted to do. I knew that I wanted to study psychology. I threw in some criminal justice classes thinking I wanted to go into prison ministry, or counseling. That didn’t tug at my heart. I took a special education class thinking I could work in preschools with kids with special needs. But that didn’t tug at my heart. It was not until the last semester of school that I realized that I wanted to desperately work with children with Down syndrome. This tugs at my heart. I feel this is my calling and my purpose. I feel strongly about this career choice. And yes, my dream is bigger than my excuses, and far more important.

The men in Luke 9:59-62 kept making excuses as to why they could not follow Jesus when Jesus told them to. The first man’s excuse was that he needed to go home and bury his father first. The second man’s excuse was that he needed to say goodbye to his family first. Jesus’s reply was this: “Anyone who puts a hand to the plow and then looks back is not fit for the Kingdom of God.” I want to be fit for the Kingdom of God. I want to go forward and not look back. I want to stop making excuses and live my dream.

“I can’t” statements can either come from truths or from laziness or fear. Obviously my “I can’t’s” are strictly from fear. Each one of my excuses are things that can be worked on and figured out. I just need to get that in my mind and stop making excuses.

What is your dream? What excuses are holding you back?

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#StickWithIt

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Life can be challenging. There are so many things to do and not enough time to do them in a day, or sometimes even a week! My six-year old daughter has cheerleading twice a week – Monday and Thursday. Wednesday nights are Awana nights. Saturdays are early morning football games where she cheers. Sunday morning is church, and then sometimes in the evenings we have dinner with my family. That leaves a Tuesday open and everybody knows that Tuesday is that day of the week that we are already exhausted! I’m not complaining because secretly I like the go-go-go of my life. (Shhh…don’t tell anybody!)

I am currently in a Bible Study through Proverbs 31 Ministries. We are working through a book by Lysa TerKeurst (whom I adore!) called “What Happens When Women Say Yest to God.” This book has changed my perspective on quite a few different areas in my life. Last week, the third week of the study, I was feeling a little down because I was reading about my other sisters in Christ and how they have heard God speak to them. They all had amazing, touching stories about their walk with God. I loved this. However, I still had not heard from God and I was sort of wondering when it was my turn. I thought maybe I was doing the study wrong, perhaps not putting enough time and passion into it. But then, Sunday at the end of church service, I heard it. God’s voice.

In our church bulletin there was a card called Vision Sunday. On this card were places to check for you to help with the church. Now this is not my home church and we are not currently members there. However, we’ve been attending for a while. So in my mind I did not feel comfortable enough to check any box on that card. However, at the end of service, while standing in prayer, I kept hearing, “Nursery Worker.” I thought, “Say what? A nursery worker? ME? I do not feel comfortable working with other peoples’ children. God, is that really You?” I kept hearing the words repeat themselves until I looked back at the card I had so nicely tucked away into my bag. There at the bottom of the card were the words “Nursery Worker” with a small check box placed just to the left. I found myself taking my pen and checking that little box. After clicking my pen closed, I no longer heard the words “nursery worker” and I swear I could feel God smile.

Honestly, week one and two of the study were so fresh and exciting to me. But by week three I was feeling a little drained and down that I still had not heard from God. But then at the end of the week, there He was, speaking to me and calling me out to help in the nursery. I had thought of giving up. However, now I am chosing to #StickWithIt because I know that I am going to hear from God more often. I am learning how to find a peaceful place and just be quiet and listen. Psalm 37:7 tells us to “be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act.”

I could have quit, I could have just given up. But I feel like giving up on the study is giving up on God. In her book, Lysa says, “It isn’t going to be easy. But we have Jesus and His power and that power is able to completely change our outlook on life.” How amazing is that statement? We have the power of Jesus to change the way we see our lives! When going through hard times, we sometimes feel all alone. However, we can lean on Jesus and #StickWithIt!

Are you going through something now in your life that you would like to quit because it isn’t easy? How do you see yourself getting through it?

 

“Rejoice in what God is doing in me through difficult times.” ~ Lysa TerKeurst

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Roller Coaster Ride

Ugh!! I’m sorry I’ve been away for so long. I fell into a deep depression and started having severe anxiety along with panic attacks. My doctor put me on Paxil and Xanax. The first week after starting the Paxil I was so sick. I could barely get off the couch! It was terrible. I lost weight from not being able to eat, which I’m not going to complain about. 😉 However, I did miss out on the awesome burrito supper my dear husband made while I was sick. (Praying he will make it again soon!)

I am feeling much better now. I have learned relaxation techniques which really help with my anxiety. I do still get panicky, but not as bad as before. I thank God for answering those little prayers.

School has started back already. My three kids are still getting adjusted but they are doing great. My daughter is a cheerleader this year and she is doing an amazing job. And she loves it!! Which is wonderful!

On a sadder note – my great uncle passed away last Thursday. He was buried this weekend. It was so very sad because I grew up with him. He reminded me so much of my granddaddy, who passed away when I was 13 years old. My granddaddy was my best friend in the whole world. There was nobody like him, and there never will be. My great uncle’s passing brought back memories of my granddaddy and to me it was as if he died all over again.

Happier note – I have joined an online women’s Bible study called “What Happens When Women Say Yes to God.” I absolutely love it! It is bringing me closer in my relationship with the Lord. I have learned so much already! Including verse mapping, which I had never heard of before this study. We have so much fun. There are prayer calls as well as Real Life Connection Calls. Lisa TerKeurst and Mandisa have been speakers on the calls!! We also have Twitter parties and Facebook parties and lots of prizes are given out! If you would like to learn more, check out their website here.

I hope you have a very blessed day!! God bless!